It has been 2 weeks now since my dad passed away. So far, we've been doing ok but just because we've been busying ourselves day in and day out with entertaining our relatives from the US. We've been going out everyday - from the condo in Eastwood, to Makati then Alabang and back. It has been endless mall hopping (which surprisingly didn't excite me so much) and food galore these past weeks. Tiring as it was (I usually go straight to bed by the time I get home), it has been good for the family. It gave us something else to think about and in a way, it has brought our family closer. Before, we usually just see each other once or twice a year - during major holidays. But now, it's like a reunion almost every other day.
Tita Elmie and Janus just left this afternoon. They're going back to Vegas and who knows when we'll see them again (though we're hoping to visit them next year probably). Tito Benny is still here but he's set to go back to Jersey in early August. And with our lives slowly returning back to normal, it's now sinking in again that we'll never be complete. I get this sudden bout of sadness every now and then, and there are days when I can't hold back the tears especially when I see the pictures of my dad around the house.
Just the other day, we were watching my sister's wedding video and I cried when I saw my dad walking down the aisle. He was still full of life then with a big smile on his face. I'll never see that again, but I'm just living in the comfort knowing that he's happy now and he'll always be looking over us.
In just a few days, I'll be going back to work and that's another thing that would bring back the normalcy in my life. Though I know that it will never be the same, but I'm just taking it one day at a time...
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