Coming home used to be filled with much happiness and excitement. But not this time. As I stepped off the plane, sadness overcame me and I just can't describe how exactly I felt. Part of me was quite happy knowing that just outside the gates, my mom, brother and Lec were waiting for me. But a bigger part was dreading to see what I tried to escape from for the past 48 hours.
It was a sad smile when I finally saw them just down the ramp. No words were exchanged, just tight hugs, but everyone knew the unspoken words. I was holding Lec's hand the entire ride from the airport to Loyola Memorial. I was still ok by then, catching up with my family and trying to absorb everything that has happened from that fateful Friday evening.
But as soon as the car entered the gates of Loyola and I got a glimpse of all the flowers outside my dad's chapel, I just broke down and literally cried like a baby. Seeing is believing and that's when it really hit me. My mom, sis, brother and Lec were around me, and I distinctly remember some of my uncles trying to comfort me. I cried for a good half an hour or so and the whole time, I was just in the car and couldn't bring myself to come down.
When I finally calmed down, Lec was holding my hand as I went down the car and entered the chapel but as soon as I saw the white casket up ahead, I broke down all over again. It's the saddest and most painful thing ever. I can't remember how long I cried all over again but I just couldn't bring myself to look at my dad. Not yet. I stayed at the back of the chapel with the rest of the family.
We finally headed home at around 2am already. I was so tired but sleep is an alien thing at the moment. Try as I might, I just can't sleep. I just laid down waiting for the sun to rise, finally accepting that he's gone, but knowing that he's in a much better place already...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
32 hours
I've been up for 32 hours straight now. Try as I might, I just can't sleep last night. I actually stayed at the couch in the living room coz my room was just so lonely. My body is screaming for sleep already but my mind just can't. Everytime I'm on the verge of finally falling asleep, someone would text or call and that would wake me up all over again. So I just packed the remaining of my stuff and waited for sunrise.
I had a very stressful check-in. I had to argue with the Northwest/Delta guy coz he was charging me $50 for each luggage coz it was over 50 pounds...but I was flying Business and I insisted that it should be free up to 70 pounds. He even asked his supervisor to confirm. I was so tired and stressed out already so I just paid but Fro insisted on seeing a copy of the policy which states so since I was so insistent that it's there in the NWA site that i'm entitled to 2 70-pound and 1 40-pound luggage for free. What's the use of upgrading? While his supervisor tried to get a copy of the policy thingy, Fro was trying to search the NWA site thru his fone regarding the baggage limit rules but for some reason, there wasn't anything specific coming up for international business class flights to Asia.
After what seemed like eternity, I so wanted to go through security already so we started to leave. And that's when the supervisor came with a printout of the policy. She started pointing out that for coach, anything in excess of 50 pounds will be charged an additional $50. And I was like, I don't care about coach coz I'm flying business. And she goes, 'oh, so you're business class? then you're right, you're entitled up to 70 pounds each' ANAK NG!!!! Apparently, the guy at the counter told her that I was just flying coach despite my insisting that business class is entitled to 3 free luggages and all. And hello, nakasulat kaya sa boarding pass ko na Business! Lech! I was so taray already and I think I kinda scared off Fro, Ros and Abel coz this was the first time that they saw my 'grouchy Smurfette' side. Hihihi.
Kasi naman. Hindi ba daw i-check ang nakalagay sa boarding pass and he wasn't listening to me. And hello, I was able to check in 3 luggages for free (without the overweight thingy) eh business class lang kaya ang pwedeng 3 luggages! Grrrr. I was really pissed off and my eyebrows were raised the whole time and I was so bitchy already. In fairness, the supervisor apologized and they immediately voided my overweight payment, but not after wasting about half an hour arguing that I WAS RIGHT!
Please, any day but today. Especially when I haven't had sleep for 32 hours! Finally, when everything got sorted out, I had to calm down myself as I said goodbye to my friends. And that's when it finally dawned on me that this is it...this is my last day in Minnesota. This is not how I planned to go, but unexpected things happen. So for now, my 2009 Minnesota adventure is complete. Not the best one (just until the last few days) but just the same, as memorable as can be.
I'm about to board the plane in about half an hour and I'm bracing myself. I'm taking advantage of the free wine at the lounge in the hopes that I can finally get some sleep. But I'm kinda doubtful. For now, I'll just get myself home and take it from there.
I had a very stressful check-in. I had to argue with the Northwest/Delta guy coz he was charging me $50 for each luggage coz it was over 50 pounds...but I was flying Business and I insisted that it should be free up to 70 pounds. He even asked his supervisor to confirm. I was so tired and stressed out already so I just paid but Fro insisted on seeing a copy of the policy which states so since I was so insistent that it's there in the NWA site that i'm entitled to 2 70-pound and 1 40-pound luggage for free. What's the use of upgrading? While his supervisor tried to get a copy of the policy thingy, Fro was trying to search the NWA site thru his fone regarding the baggage limit rules but for some reason, there wasn't anything specific coming up for international business class flights to Asia.
After what seemed like eternity, I so wanted to go through security already so we started to leave. And that's when the supervisor came with a printout of the policy. She started pointing out that for coach, anything in excess of 50 pounds will be charged an additional $50. And I was like, I don't care about coach coz I'm flying business. And she goes, 'oh, so you're business class? then you're right, you're entitled up to 70 pounds each' ANAK NG!!!! Apparently, the guy at the counter told her that I was just flying coach despite my insisting that business class is entitled to 3 free luggages and all. And hello, nakasulat kaya sa boarding pass ko na Business! Lech! I was so taray already and I think I kinda scared off Fro, Ros and Abel coz this was the first time that they saw my 'grouchy Smurfette' side. Hihihi.
Kasi naman. Hindi ba daw i-check ang nakalagay sa boarding pass and he wasn't listening to me. And hello, I was able to check in 3 luggages for free (without the overweight thingy) eh business class lang kaya ang pwedeng 3 luggages! Grrrr. I was really pissed off and my eyebrows were raised the whole time and I was so bitchy already. In fairness, the supervisor apologized and they immediately voided my overweight payment, but not after wasting about half an hour arguing that I WAS RIGHT!
Please, any day but today. Especially when I haven't had sleep for 32 hours! Finally, when everything got sorted out, I had to calm down myself as I said goodbye to my friends. And that's when it finally dawned on me that this is it...this is my last day in Minnesota. This is not how I planned to go, but unexpected things happen. So for now, my 2009 Minnesota adventure is complete. Not the best one (just until the last few days) but just the same, as memorable as can be.
I'm about to board the plane in about half an hour and I'm bracing myself. I'm taking advantage of the free wine at the lounge in the hopes that I can finally get some sleep. But I'm kinda doubtful. For now, I'll just get myself home and take it from there.
Friday, June 26, 2009
tired
It has been a very loooong day. It's already 2am here and I'm so tired but I'm not sleepy. I don't think I can sleep. I guess I'm still in denial. I remember asking my roomie this morning if I was just dreaming. This is the worst thing that has happened to me, and I guess to everyone in my family, and what makes me feel really bad is I didn't get the chance to see him anymore. 2 weeks. Just a few more days, but he didn't wait for me.
I felt as if I was floating the entire day, trying to just go through the motions and get it over with. One moment, I'm ok but when I suddenly realize that he's gone, I just breakdown. I wasn't prepared at all. No one was. And I'm dreading my flight home coz I'll just be all alone and I have all those 16 hours or so just by myself and I know, that's when things will finally sink in.
I'm so thankful for my roomie and good friends Abel, Fro and Scott who immediately came over right after work and kept me company. Not to mention help me pack all my stuff. I can't imagine how I could have done everything without them.
I'm still in shock. I guess until I finally see it for myself, I won't believe that it really happened. Now I realize that even though so many people are saying that it's gonna be ok, truth is, it will never be. And I'm scared and sad and everything else in between, coz things will never be the same again. Ever.
The only thing I regret right now is not being able to see him for the past 6 months. And I just realized that the last thing I told him in person was 'goodbye', as I was leaving for the airport.
But I was able to talk to him last Father's Day and my last words to him were 'I love you, papa'. But never did I imagine that that's the last time I'll be able to say it to him out loud. He was even so excited that I'll be going home in a few days.
All the excitement that I had these past days vanished in just a snap. And now, I'm dreading to come home.
I'm not ok and I don't know when I'll be ok. And the only comfort I have right now is knowing that he's in a better place already, away from all the pain and hardship he has been going through.
I love you, papa. And I miss you so much.
I felt as if I was floating the entire day, trying to just go through the motions and get it over with. One moment, I'm ok but when I suddenly realize that he's gone, I just breakdown. I wasn't prepared at all. No one was. And I'm dreading my flight home coz I'll just be all alone and I have all those 16 hours or so just by myself and I know, that's when things will finally sink in.
I'm so thankful for my roomie and good friends Abel, Fro and Scott who immediately came over right after work and kept me company. Not to mention help me pack all my stuff. I can't imagine how I could have done everything without them.
I'm still in shock. I guess until I finally see it for myself, I won't believe that it really happened. Now I realize that even though so many people are saying that it's gonna be ok, truth is, it will never be. And I'm scared and sad and everything else in between, coz things will never be the same again. Ever.
The only thing I regret right now is not being able to see him for the past 6 months. And I just realized that the last thing I told him in person was 'goodbye', as I was leaving for the airport.
But I was able to talk to him last Father's Day and my last words to him were 'I love you, papa'. But never did I imagine that that's the last time I'll be able to say it to him out loud. He was even so excited that I'll be going home in a few days.
All the excitement that I had these past days vanished in just a snap. And now, I'm dreading to come home.
I'm not ok and I don't know when I'll be ok. And the only comfort I have right now is knowing that he's in a better place already, away from all the pain and hardship he has been going through.
I love you, papa. And I miss you so much.
crap.
Spoke to soon. Fortune cookies ARE crap. Next month is definitely not going to be happy. And today is the worst day ever. Sadness to the highest level :(
Thursday, June 25, 2009
box
With only a few days left, I've started packing my stuff already, preparing to have them shipped back to Manila. I'm already on my 3rd box but it seems it's still not enough! The box is already half full and yet, my closet is still brimming with clothes, shoes and bags. Waaah. I'm trying to see how I can strategically fit everything in the remaining space and my luggages. Goodluck! As much as I'm excited to go home, I hate the packing part...effort!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Must See
One thing that I'll definitely miss is being able to watch a movie at least once a week - on a weekday, right after work. Southdale is our default movie place for only $5! The remaining days will definitely be busy (especially with wrapping up so many things at work!) but I'm hoping to be able to see these before I leave: 
And we're already set to catch the midnight showing of this even if it means no sleep before our flight:
But of course, I'll still watch this again with Lec as soon as I get back - forget about the jetlag! :)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
fortune cookie
Finally, a fortune that makes sense. I just got this from a fortune cookie at Seafood Palace and it is just fitting with my coming home next month :)
Friday, June 19, 2009
a don't and more
Saturday night, we found ourselves at Carver for another one of those Bastard's party. Knowing how such parties usually end, we prepared ourselves. We didn't need to be warned to have just 1 don't since my roomie and I had first hand experiences already on what it can do to you.
As expected, Dave was such a great host, always making sure that everyone was having fun and most importantly, that you had a drink at hand. Hahaha. We were served our fix of don't and we were smart enough to take it really slow - and made sure that there wouldn't be any seconds. But as soon as we finished it (which was about an hour after it was handed to us), Dave had glasses of Pear Martinis waiting for us already. Funny side story - it was quite noisy down at the basement, with Rock Bank (or was it Guitar Hero?) playing at full blast, when Dave said that he's preparing another drink for us. All we heard was something-tini and Ros and I were like 'masarap yun...'tini daw eh!'. Hahaha. And in fairness, it was really good!
The only downside to the party - there was no food! Waaaah. Drink 'til you drop talaga sya. We were so tempted to sneak out to our car where we had a can of mixed nuts. Hahaha. Unable to take it anymore, we told our 'daddy' that we were really hungry already. In fairness, he raided Dave's fridge and made us some roast beef and ham sandwiches. But we were still hungry and sensing that we won't stop bothering him until we get some decent food, he was kind enough to order some pizzas. Yey!
With our bellies finally full, we headed back downstairs where the rest of the folks are. We were handed a fresh glass of cocktail even before we could take our seats. Ros took her turn at Rock Band while I stayed behind by the bar, chatting with Dave and someone else (sorry, forgot his name!). Bad move for me coz Dave suddenly came up with the idea of having a tequila tasting. Before I could even protest, he was already pouring shots and lining up the glasses in front of me. How can I resist?!
Next thing I know, I was all hyper and giddy all over which only means one thing. Hahaha. I lost track of time and I had no idea what time we finally left - but it was definitely early morning already. Good thing 'mommy' was sober enough to drive us all back. It sure was one hell of a night and I'm glad we had the chance to experience it one last (?) time. You can never go wrong at the bastard's party! :)
As expected, Dave was such a great host, always making sure that everyone was having fun and most importantly, that you had a drink at hand. Hahaha. We were served our fix of don't and we were smart enough to take it really slow - and made sure that there wouldn't be any seconds. But as soon as we finished it (which was about an hour after it was handed to us), Dave had glasses of Pear Martinis waiting for us already. Funny side story - it was quite noisy down at the basement, with Rock Bank (or was it Guitar Hero?) playing at full blast, when Dave said that he's preparing another drink for us. All we heard was something-tini and Ros and I were like 'masarap yun...'tini daw eh!'. Hahaha. And in fairness, it was really good!
The only downside to the party - there was no food! Waaaah. Drink 'til you drop talaga sya. We were so tempted to sneak out to our car where we had a can of mixed nuts. Hahaha. Unable to take it anymore, we told our 'daddy' that we were really hungry already. In fairness, he raided Dave's fridge and made us some roast beef and ham sandwiches. But we were still hungry and sensing that we won't stop bothering him until we get some decent food, he was kind enough to order some pizzas. Yey!
With our bellies finally full, we headed back downstairs where the rest of the folks are. We were handed a fresh glass of cocktail even before we could take our seats. Ros took her turn at Rock Band while I stayed behind by the bar, chatting with Dave and someone else (sorry, forgot his name!). Bad move for me coz Dave suddenly came up with the idea of having a tequila tasting. Before I could even protest, he was already pouring shots and lining up the glasses in front of me. How can I resist?!
Next thing I know, I was all hyper and giddy all over which only means one thing. Hahaha. I lost track of time and I had no idea what time we finally left - but it was definitely early morning already. Good thing 'mommy' was sober enough to drive us all back. It sure was one hell of a night and I'm glad we had the chance to experience it one last (?) time. You can never go wrong at the bastard's party! :)
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
just a few more days...
It's now dawning on me that my Minneapolis adventure is about to end soon. We have less than a month left and I have mixed emotions about it. I'm quite sad to leave...I'll definitely miss this city I've fallen in love with (yes, even with the extreme winter season!), along with all the people and places which made my stay memorable. But the difference this time is that a bigger part of me is excited to go home. I can't wait to see my family and friends again, and most especially, I can't wait to see him! This time around, it feels just right to finally be coming home...see you soon, dear! :)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
back on track
I just stocked up on my fix of chick lit. It's just not right that for the past 5 months, I can only count in 1 hand the books I've read. Waaaah. I just hope I find the time to read them! But in fairness, I'm already in Chapter 5 of Sleeping Arrangments and I just started like 2 hours ago. A big improvement! Hehehe.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
California Reunion
This is the 3rd year in a row that I flew to California to visit Cristy and so far, this is my most relaxing trip ever. This time around, our weekend plans were pretty simple. Just hangout, go to the beach, do some shopping then go out at night for drinks. But as always, we sure had fun, fun, fun!I got in at around 9pm on Friday and it took me about half an hour to get my luggage and finally meet up with Cristy and Shane. Since we all haven't had dinner yet, we headed to Manna for eat-all-you-can Korean barbeque and I must say that it was really worth it! Yummy! This is the first time that I had such and it was really good (though di pa rin kami friends ni kimchi...hehehe). I wonder if there's a similar place in Manila...
Cristy just moved to the Valley and it was already past midnight when we finally got home. Of course, we still stayed up for a few hours to catch up and it was not until around 2am when we finally called it a night. The next day, we headed to Malibu to just relax by the beach. The weather was really great (good thing the forecast of slight rain and a cloudy day didn't come true!). Too bad we didn't bring our swimsuits but the water was pretty cold anyway so hanging out and watching the waves by the shore was good enough. 
Then off to the Camarillo Premium Outlets for some shopping! And shopping heaven it is! Let's just say that good thing I only brought a small carry on luggage coz if not, I might have been bankrupt already by the time I got back to Minneapolis. Hahaha.
After a tiring but very fulfilling afternoon, we rested for a bit before heading to Downtown Burbank for drinks. We met up with Vince and Egbert at the Burbank Bar and Grill and just hungout til closing time.
We woke up at around 10am already on Sunday. Since my flight back to the Twin Cities was at 5:30pm, we didn't have much plans for the day but just to hear mass and have chicken joy for lunch. Yes, Jollibee it is! I have to admit, I really missed it! Hahaha.
How I wish the weekend was longer. As much as I didn't wanna leave yet, I had to go back to work and face reality. Hehehe. Thanks, Cristy and Shane! It was again a very memorable weekend. Til next time!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Girl Bonding
I promised Cristy that I'll visit her again before heading home so as promised, I'm heading off to LA for the weekend. Too bad Scusi won't be coming over but for sure, we'd still have fun, fun, fun! She just moved to the Valley so it's a new place to explore. Our weekend is pretty packed already - Malibu beach tomorrow morning, outlet mall in the afternoon (of course, there has to be shopping!), then night out at Hollywood to end the day. Sunday is still pretty open but I'm sure we'll think of something fun to do. Can't wait for this day to end. I'm looking forward to hop on that plane and go to the west coast this time for some girl bonding! :)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
The Hangover
It's movie night once again and this time, we watched The Hangover. My roomie actually saw this already last weekend while I was at the east coast but she didn't mind watching it again. In fairness, it was pretty good and very unpredictable. It would really make you think, what happened?! It's one of those feel-good-no-brainer movies that will leave you laughing all throughout. Everything eventually made sense in the end but one thing was left unexplained - where did the chicken come from!?
sick
I blame it on the crappy weather. It's supposed to be summer but we haven't had sunshine since the weekend. It has been really gloomy these past days and not to mention cold! Just as I was packing away my sweaters, I found myself wearing one again. And the change of weather got into me. From a very hot New Jersey/New York to a very cold Minneapolis = stuffy nose, sore throat and slight fever :( I downed myself with medicines last night and even took my roomie's panget lozenges. I can't get sick! Especially not this week since I'm going to LA this weekend. In fairness, I'm feeling a whole lot better this morning (panget works! hahaha) but I still have the sniffles. I hope the weather improves already and I get better soon!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
family time
Nothing beats spending time with family. I basically just relaxed in New Jersey. It was nice to see all of them (especially Baby Greggy! He made me miss Gabby even more) and just hangout by the pool, grill burgers and hotdogs, and simply enjoy the warm, sunny day. Of course I had to sneak in some shopping and I was able to get some good deals at Jersey Gardens...hihihi.
New York on the other hand was another story. We went to check out the Phil-Am parade thingy in celebration of the Philippines' Independence Day, and there was just so many people! It's the first time here in the US that I saw so many Filipinos all in one place. It was also so hot that we could only take so much of walking along Madison Avenue. We ended up desperately finding a shaded area in Madison Square Park to rest and cool off.
The weekend flew by so fast. It would have been better if I could stay for at least another day. I'll see if I can swing by again in July. It would be nice to visit them again before I head back home... :)
Friday, June 5, 2009
Big Apple
I'm off to the Big Apple later this afternoon for a much needed break (all these portuguese translations are driving me crazy already!). I'm looking forward to the warmer weather (it's gonna be chilly and rainy in the twin cities this weekend!) and to just relax (and possibly some shopping...hihihi) with my cousins, adorable niece and new nephew who I'm about to see for the first time. Can't wait for this day to be over. I'm on weekend mode already! :)
Monday, June 1, 2009
Checkpoint!
How fast time flies! It's already June and half of the year has already passed. I was going through my past posts and I came across the one I wrote at the start of this year. Let's see where I am with what I planned to accomplish...
Travel more. Check! I'm still here in the Twin Cities and I have a couple of trips planned in the coming weeks. I've just been to Chicago and next on my list is New Jersey and New York this coming weekend, and LA the next. I was hoping to visit a new state but that's still up in the air for now. But nevertheless, I'm pretty successful on the travel front.
Read more. Waaah. Unfortunately, I failed on this area. So far, I was only able to finish 1 book since I got here! Pathetic! The book that I brought along on the flight going here is still untouched. Hahaha. And I've been reading the same book for about a month already! This is so not right. Well, I've been really busy and I'm barely home on the weekends. For now, my goal is just to finish my current book before I leave. Hahaha. But I do hope I can catch up on my reading when I get back home. On the bright side, I've slashed off my book spending big time!
Work hard (but not kill myself!). Check! In fairness, I now have some work-life balance. I've had my share of toxic and stressful days (not to mention another maalaala mo kaya moment!) but I make sure that I make up for it - may it be happy hour, movie nights, partying hard on the weekends or having some shopping sprees (my ultimate pick-me-up!), I make time to have fun. :) Though I'm seeing that the upcoming weeks will once again be toxic, but what the heck, it's just a cycle and I've learned how to work hard and party harder :)
Eat healthy, stay fit. Check! I've actually lost weight! Yey! I've been swimming regularly and have been eating healthy. I've managed to stay off the Ben and Jerry's and Haagen Daz's (we've had the same 2 pints in our freezer for months now!) but when my craving for something sweet kicks in, Cheesecake Factory it is! Hahaha.
Spend less, save more. Check! I've reached my target savings for now (but I'm hoping to still increase it a bit) but I'm still able to splurge every now and then. In fairness, I've somehow managed to stick to my 1-coach-bag-a-month plan! Yey!
Drive again. Next.
Keep the love alive. Double check! Things are going really well with us, though we're missing each other big time! :( But that will change in just a few weeks (6 weeks to be exact!). Thank God, we've managed to make things work out. Can't wait to see him again. I've had enough of this long distance thing already!
Live. Laugh. Love. I'm definitely still living my life to the fullest, laughing hard and loving with all my heart :)
Not bad for my mid-year checkpoint. I still have time to accomplish the other things (read and drive!) and maybe do even more... :)
Travel more. Check! I'm still here in the Twin Cities and I have a couple of trips planned in the coming weeks. I've just been to Chicago and next on my list is New Jersey and New York this coming weekend, and LA the next. I was hoping to visit a new state but that's still up in the air for now. But nevertheless, I'm pretty successful on the travel front.
Read more. Waaah. Unfortunately, I failed on this area. So far, I was only able to finish 1 book since I got here! Pathetic! The book that I brought along on the flight going here is still untouched. Hahaha. And I've been reading the same book for about a month already! This is so not right. Well, I've been really busy and I'm barely home on the weekends. For now, my goal is just to finish my current book before I leave. Hahaha. But I do hope I can catch up on my reading when I get back home. On the bright side, I've slashed off my book spending big time!
Work hard (but not kill myself!). Check! In fairness, I now have some work-life balance. I've had my share of toxic and stressful days (not to mention another maalaala mo kaya moment!) but I make sure that I make up for it - may it be happy hour, movie nights, partying hard on the weekends or having some shopping sprees (my ultimate pick-me-up!), I make time to have fun. :) Though I'm seeing that the upcoming weeks will once again be toxic, but what the heck, it's just a cycle and I've learned how to work hard and party harder :)
Eat healthy, stay fit. Check! I've actually lost weight! Yey! I've been swimming regularly and have been eating healthy. I've managed to stay off the Ben and Jerry's and Haagen Daz's (we've had the same 2 pints in our freezer for months now!) but when my craving for something sweet kicks in, Cheesecake Factory it is! Hahaha.
Spend less, save more. Check! I've reached my target savings for now (but I'm hoping to still increase it a bit) but I'm still able to splurge every now and then. In fairness, I've somehow managed to stick to my 1-coach-bag-a-month plan! Yey!
Drive again. Next.
Keep the love alive. Double check! Things are going really well with us, though we're missing each other big time! :( But that will change in just a few weeks (6 weeks to be exact!). Thank God, we've managed to make things work out. Can't wait to see him again. I've had enough of this long distance thing already!
Live. Laugh. Love. I'm definitely still living my life to the fullest, laughing hard and loving with all my heart :)
Not bad for my mid-year checkpoint. I still have time to accomplish the other things (read and drive!) and maybe do even more... :)
if you say so
It's interesting when people say one thing but their actions obviously show another. In denial? Maybe. But who are they fooling, other people or themselves? Hmmm...
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