1am realizations

It's already 1am but I'm still up and about! We were down to the last disc of the last season of 24 and we just can't stop (again, don't watch this series on a weekday!). My brother, uncle and I were glued to the TV, at the edge of our seats (literally!) until we reached the final hour. The ending was bittersweet and yet it's the fitting end to one of the best series I've watched. I wouldn't mind at all if there's still a Season 9!

With all the adrenaline and excitement from watching that, I'm not sleepy at all. I should be tucking myself in already since I need to get up again in about 5 hours. But in the meantime (while I make myself sleepy), I've been thinking of the things that happened these past months and boy, what a way to usher in the new year!

I had high hopes for 2011 with the goal of doing something different...making a big change...and I'm this close to actually achieving it. Not bad given that the first quarter of the year is not even over. I'll give more details once it actualy happens (don't want to jinx it!) but looking through the process of getting there made me realize that I am indeed getting older. Decisions made are not just based on what's convenient but I've actually looked at the long term result. Bottomline, I believe I made a mature decision and I really feel good about it.

Looking at my 'kids' right now, it somehow amuses me that at this point, I'm the one saying that 'I was once there' and it feels such a long time ago. Seeing how they work, how they deal with issues, how they make decisions on even the simplest of things (taking the MRT vs taking a cab), how they see things, just makes me smile...and as what I often tell my friends (aka the 'oldies'), bata pa nga sila. They still have a long a way to go. Everything that they're going through is part of the journey and somehow I know that they'd come out alright in the end...well, at least for some of them. Hahaha.

So what's my point in all these? Well, I'll finally be rolling off from the project I've been in for the past 8 1/2 years and can't help to be quite sentimental about it. I've seen these kids grow professionally and I just hope that somehow, they learned something during the time I took them under my wing. ORMAP has been my life and realizing that I'll be leaving them behind in a week's time is kinda bittersweet. Even with all the stress, sleepless nights, long hours and even some tears, I wouldn't have had it any other way.

On a lighter note, I wouldn't mind being on bench for a change. As far as I know, there's no project yet lined up for me so this is a much needed break. Just what I need before I start on something new... ;)